“The name on the screen — five letters, the same five letters I had saved at 1:47 AM five weeks ago — the name was an electric shock. My body responded before my brain could process: heart rate spiking, palms sweating, the particular physiological cascade of a person who was experiencing hope and fear simultaneously, the two emotions fused into a single, overpowering sensation that was neither excitement nor dread but both, the emotional equivalent of an earthquake and a sunrise happening at the same time.”